summer update

Wow it has been a long time since I last posted on here. i had to reread my last post just so i knew what the last thing i posted about.

First thing is that I ran the half marathon in 2:02:00 and i felt pretty good during the race. i then went and attempted another round of p90x, but after the second week i lost motivation and went to shorter less intense workouts. I got a punch card for fitness classes at fitness focus and went their for my workouts in august. I also participated in the dirty donkey mud run in july. I found it good, but not as dirty as i expected untill the end where their was a big mud pit. I also just finished a round of asylum volume 1. i feel like i got faster and stronger, but my diet was not really good so i did not see any physical results. I am currently doing a round of asylum volume 2 and i am hoping i can get my junk food under control this time.

I also got a big shocker in july that has changed things for the better. I bought a ticket for a local home lottery and on july 19th i got a call that i won the 50/50 draw for $222225. I recently bought myself my first house with the money and also paidoff the minimal debt that i had. I have been living in my house for about two weeks now and it has fwlt pretty nice living alone.

First week at the Feed Plant complete

I finished my first week at the feed plant today and the week was definitely interesting. The first couple days went really well, but as the week went on I started to have some asthma issues. For the first hour of the day I am grabbing bags of various products like Lysine, Sodium bicarbonate etc. I then have to rip open the bags and fill the bins up so the products can be mixed together and bagged later. While filling the bins it creates a lot of dust. We do have a vacuum hose that sucks up most of it, but it does not get it all because I am done with that I usually have to take a couple minutes and control my breathing before I can continue working. Then at the end of day we have to sweep up the place and that usually takes me a while because I am stopping every so often to control my breathing. When I took this position, I was told that I could transfer back to my previous position if I ever feel that this position is not for me, for whatever reason. I am most likely going to take to my supervisor on Monday morning and tell him that next week will be my last week at the feed plant. I know that when I go back to the Agro warehouse, I will be teased about only lasting two weeks, but that is ok because we joke around with each other all the time.

I will be posting my next Vitamin blog tonight as well because I am sort of stuck in my room right now. My roommates and their friends are currently in the middle of a Passion Party and I really do not want to be seen right now in fear of them making me join in.

Sweaty Movie Weekend

This weekend was definately interesting. My one roomate had plans to go to Edmonton with her mother and sister this weekend and then on Thursday my other roomate, her fiance, was told that his job had no work for him on friday so he decided to go with her family. That mean't that I had the house to myself all weekend, except for the tennant in the basement. Most people would take this time to inite a few people over, but instead I spent all weekend watching movies, when I wasn't working out that is. I went to visit my dad on friday, like I do every week, and I found out that the video store in my hometown was closing and they were having a close-out sale. The sale was not as good as I thought, all movies were $15.00, so I only bought five movies. I orignally had a stack of about 12 movies, but got rid of a bunch because of the price. I bought "Grown-ups", "Tower Heist", "Expendables 2", "Transporter 3", and "Snow-white and the Huntsman". I watched Expendables 2 on friday after my workouts, then on Saturday I did my workouts for the day, went grocery shopping and then I sat down and watched three more movies. I enjoyed Gorwn-ups and Tower Heist, but Snow-white and the Huntsman felt a little slow.

Now it may seem like I had a bit of a lazy weekend, which is not a bad thing every once in a while, but I actually did a total of six workouts in three days this weekend. Friday I did my scheduled shoulder workout and then my two cardio workouts, like I mentioned in my last post. On Saturday morning I actually did two cardio workouts back-to-back again. This time I did "Pure Cardio" from Insanity followed by "HIIT 30" from Turbo Fire. Finally tonight, Sunday, I did "Power Legs" from Asylum Vol 2, even though Sundays are normally my rest days.

I know I need to get out more, but the problem is that I am not going to go out by myself. I honestly would not mind hitting up the bar once a week or maybe even two weeks, but none of my friends are interested in doing that.

Binging recovery

The last few days have been interesting. On Tuesday we had a guy get transfered over from the Food Wharehouse to the Agro location, but all everyone could talk about was the other guy that we are getting next week. This guy is the type of guy that thinks he knows everything. He has been working for the company for about 2 years now and he is always telling people how to do their job. He once told a guy how to stack his pallet and this guy has been doing this job for over 20 years. I really cannot wait for tuesday, so I can see how everyone really reacts to him working with us. I think he is a little out there, but I can at least have a conversation with him some times. I have a little higher tolerance level and I also went to school with one of his brothers. After work on Tuesday I had to stop at the store and pick up milk. For some reason I had a craving for junk food, so I bought a big box of the Old Dutch baked chips (16 small bags) and ate the whole thing that night, Plus I bought a bag of those individually wrapped mini resse cups. Since I have been tracking my calories lately with MyFitnessPal, I entered the chips and chocolate into my app and apparently I consumed just about 5000 calories that day. The best part is that I also skipped my workout that day so I had a really bad calorie imbalance.

Tonight my roomates decided to have a potluck and they had a wedding related announcement to make, I honeslty had no idea what it was. There was nine of us here and a lot of food to eat, I definately over ate tonight but I expected it. The wedding announcement was that they decided to not have the big wedding and instead they are going to do a small ceremony and then we are all going out for supper and then drinking are asses off somewhere. None of us really cared that they decided to go this route, it actually makes my life a little easier because originally I was in charge of doing the slideshow and I was not looking forward to having to contact their parents to get pictures from them. The brides parents are really forgetful and cannot plan anything, while the grooms parents do not have technology so it is really hard to get a hold of them.

This coming week I have decided to lower my sodium intake from my usualy 2800mg to around 2000mg. I was actually very easy to drop it the amount I wanted. All I did was exchange my processed turkey meat for a turkey roast and just slice up the turkey for my sandwhiches. I also exchanged the rice I use, I was using those 1 minute cups of rice you throw in the microwave and now I am going to cook up some whole grain rice for the week and just portion it out everyday. Not only am I saving myself a lot of sodium, but I am actually saving myself money. The processed turkey cost me $9.00 per week, while the turkey roast is only like $20.00-$25.00 and it lasts me three weeks. The rice saves me even more, I had to by three packs of two rice things each week which cost me $7.00 and now I buy the box of rice for $8.00 and it lasts me a month.

Weigh-in, Women and Work

Today my weigh-in went really good, that extra workout I did yesterday was well worth it. I weighed 195.6lbs today which is a 4lbs loss for the week, this puts me back to where I was a month ago.I can now focus on losing the ten pounds that I need for the project10 challenge with Visalus. I would love to be a winner of the $1000, but I think the T-shirt would be nice to have. I started the last block of workouts for the Body Beast program today. Only four more weeks of this program and then I start my running training for the half marathon. I am hoping to get down to the low 180's by the time of the run, which is still 13 weeks away. That is only about one pound a week and that is definately doable if I focus on my diet like I did this past week.

I don't know if I am giving off some sort of lonely vibe, but one guy at work randomly starting talking to me about his idea on how to pick up women. Pretty much his idea is to lie to them, just to get them to come home with you. During his rambling, he did say something I really to need to think about though. He mentioned that you should not be afraid of women. He said that just because one woman shoots you down, there is always another one that will pick you up. I understand that this is true and that it is not the end of the world if a woman says no, but I still have a hard time truly believing it. There is something inside of me that is telling me that if one woman shoots me down, then why wouldn't the rest of them just do the same. There is obviously something about me that the first girl did not like, and maybe all the others girls will see the same thing and shoot me down as well.

I might be switching working locations in the near future. I recently applied for a position that is temporary (6 months), but pays a bit more. When I applied for it, my supervisor straight out told me that I would not like it there. I have heard a bunch of people say that the feed mill is dirty as hell and the shifts are not fun. The problem I have with all that is that is what everyone said about the location that I currently work at. I started out working at the food wharehouse and was transfered to the Agro location this past summer. Everyone told me that the place is supper dusty, smells like crap and that the supervisor is a retard. When I first started working there it did smell a little bad, working with tires can do that, but I do not even notice the smell anymore and my roomates say they can't smell anything unless the actually try to smell my jacket. The place is a lot dustier than the food wharehouse, but everyone made it sound like I would be choking on the dust all day long. The dust barely gets thrown around so it doesn't really bother me. So if they all said all this stuff about the Agro location and it turned out to be a pretty cool place to work, then I don't see a problem with trying out the feed mill. The biggest thing I was worried about was the shifts, I heard it was one week of days and then one weeks of night, switching back and forth all the time. I have recently found out that it is two weeks of 7:00-3:00pm and then two weeks of 3:00-11:00pm. These shifts I can ahndle because all I really need to do it go straight to bed after work when I work the night shifts. I was worried about having to work like 11:00-7:00am, that would have sucked to do, I might have even turned it out if that was the case. The thing is, if for some reason I do not like it there the position is only six months and if I can't survive there for six months then there is something really wrong. When I first applied for the postion I really did not think I even had a chance at getting it because I really don't have that much seniority at work. I have been hearing that not many people would have applied for the position so I have a good chance of getting it. The posting was taken down this weekend so I should hear what is going on somtime this week.

Energy

Today was a pretty interesting day for me. I have been having some issues wth work trying to get my paycheques figures out because I went from part-time status to full-time status back in July. I have been talking to the supervisors for the past few months and letting them know that I do not have nay benefits yet and that I should have gotten a raise. I finally got a response back from them today letting me kow that it should be fixed by next paycheque. In the email that my supervisor recieved from the HR department, it said that I had accumulated three and a half years of hours worked, yet he told me that I would be going up to the three year raise, which I should have gotten back in September. This means that on my next paycheque I wil be getting a $2.00 raise and I will also be getting six months of back pay for the raise I should have gotten back in September. That was good news to hear an for the rest of the day I actually had lots of energy. Normally on Sundays I do not workout because I like to take a least one day off a week to let my body recover, but since I had so much energy today I decided to do a kickboxing workout. I finished my workout, went inside and had my protein shake. After a few minutes I started to fall asleep in my chair so I decided to lay down and have a little nap. This nap went on for the next four hours and I am still tired as hell. Because of this long nap I had an apple for supper, since I did not feel like cooking anything at 9:30pm. I am hoping this wokrs in my favour because I have my weekly weigh-in tomorrow morning and I am hoping it is a good one.

Logging Calories

For the past few years, I have been working to improve my health and fitness. I have lost and gained weight a few times. I started out at 212lbs and got down to 167lbs back in 2010. Since then I have slowly gone up in weight. At the beginning of this year I weighed in at 202lbs, In the first month of the year I managed to drop 6.4lbs, but then I went on a little binge and got back up to 199.6. This past week I decided to track my calories again and focus on my diet this week. In the last five days I managed to get down to 196lbs. Today I wen to quiznos and realized just how many calories is in those sandwhiches, the milk and sun chips did not help either. I have decided that either I need to get a small sub everytime I go to Subway/Quiznos or at least only go there once a month or so. I am hoping this one day of a few extra calories does not hurt me too much on the scale this week, I just need to make sure that tomorrow I eat to plan. After this week is over, I will have four more week left on my current workout program called Body Beast. I am hoping to drop down to about 190-194lbs by then. After that I start my Half Marathon 8-Week training program I have set up for myself. I will be running my Second Half Marathon on May 26th, 2013 and I am hoping to be around 180-184. I know that is a big goal, but since I will be mostly doing a lot of cardio I should be able to drop a few pounds off. I have been really focused this week and I hope this drive carries on for a few more weeks.

Feeling good

I m actually feeling pretty good right now. I have gotten really serious about my eating and my workouts have been fantastic this week. I really hope this keeps up for a long time, it is actually pretty tiring being depressed about things. Being single definately has it's ups and downs. The good thing about being single is not having to spend all that money, but it definately sucks not having someone there you can talk to whenever yuo want. At least for most people they can can look back on their past relationships and remember all the good times they had, when they are feeling a bit depressed. It is a bit different with me because my last, and only, "relationship" was when I was 14 and it only lasted like a month or two. I don't think I can even call it a relationship because we never really went out by ourselves. Everytime we got together we were always in a group of our friends, so we were pretty much like really close friends. It has been over ten years since then and I have not really had anything that would be considered close to a relationship. Everytime I find a girl I like, she either has a boyfriend or just broke up with one and is not ready to start anything at the moment, then I find out they have a new boyfriend a couple months later. I even tried online dating and the best I got was this one girl who I text back and forth a bit. I would love to go to the bar, but none of my friends like to do that. I have gone a couple times with the guys from work, but I don't feel comfortable enough around them to really try anything at the bar. I have no experience in this area of life and I feel like the guys will make fun of me because I do not know what to do or say to any of the girls. I always look at a girl that I think is really cute, but I can't just go over and talk to her because I cannot think of any reason why she would want to talk to me when there are so many other guys in the bar that are a lot better looking and have a lot more confidence. I have a huge fear of being rejected and I really do not understand why because I know that ifa girl turns me down it's not like it is the end of the world, but I still can't bring myself to go up to a girl and talk to her. I also think that I have nothing that women really want. I consider myself to be the "nice guy" and I just think that women would only want to be with me untill they find a guy that they really like or they would want to keep me around so they have someone to talk to about their problems and that is not enough for me.

I think that is all I really have to say for today, this is pretty much what the majority of my blogs will be like. I just write them as the ideas pop into my head.

Thursday Feb. 21st, 2013 - introduction

Hello, for those of you that come across my blogs, and actually decide to follow me, I am going breifly explain what I will be doing with this. I have decided to Start a blog because My emotions have been all over the place for the last couple months and I need to get things off my chest every once in a while. I am not the type of person to talk about my troubles with other people because I feel like I would just be bothering them with something that does not really concern them.

For those of you who really care about who the person is behind the stories, I will tell you all a few things about myself. My name is Rick Kohlman, I am 24 years old and I live in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan, Canada. I have a diploma from SIAST in Food and Nutriton Management and I currently work as a material handler with Federated CO-op (I am hoping to move up in the company to a supervisor postion). I currently live with my two best friends, who are engaged, and I hoping to by my own house in the next five years. I have been single for the majority of my life, I had one "girlfriend" when I was 14 for like a summer, and I feel like that is the biggest part of my emotional state. I will most likely be blogging about that for the majority of my blogs.

You can actually also check me out on Youtube (fusiondude890), I make Vlogs on there every once in a while now, I used to make them often before.
http://fusiondude890.myvi.net/